So today I did a phone screening over the phone with Scottsdale Perinatal. The high-risk OB/GYN decided that I was not considered high risk solely on the basis of my rheumatoid arthritis diagnosis and the time it took me to conceive. She told me that I should go to a regular OB and if necessary down the road then I would get a referral to them.
I was happy because I felt the same way. Being labeled "high risk" scared me. So now I have an appointment for 23 days from today with my Aunt Leah's OB/GYN who delivered her twins. I'm excited for 2 things:1) now I officially have my own OB doctor. Her name is Christine Oehler, MD with Desert West OBGYN, Ltd. I've met her before when I was Leah's coach toward the end of Leah's pregnancy. She was very nice and knowledgeable; 2) I will have my first ultrasound on this day and I will finally hear my baby's heartbeat!!!! And the doctor will confirm that everything is okay.
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
My Current Situation
12/31/2014 @8:23AM MST
I currently feel like Violet from Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory AFTER she ate that bubble gum piece that tastes like a 3-course meal with dessert gone totally wrong. Lol. Just bloated...Totally bloated and nothing will help. Pray for me...
I currently feel like Violet from Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory AFTER she ate that bubble gum piece that tastes like a 3-course meal with dessert gone totally wrong. Lol. Just bloated...Totally bloated and nothing will help. Pray for me...
Monday, December 30, 2013
My Current Situation
The way I figure, a picture is sometimes worth a thousand words, so I've decided to periodically find a picture or make a PicStitch to share with my own caption to describe my current situation... Most of them will be funny and I sometimes have a crude sense of humor so if that's not your type of humor *Warning* Do not proceed!
12/30/2013 @10:13PM MST
To the left: This is the regular me on sleep. To the right: This is my pregnant body on sleep. Things just got worse!
12/30/2013 @10:13PM MST
To the left: This is the regular me on sleep. To the right: This is my pregnant body on sleep. Things just got worse!
I'm Gonna Be Somebody's MAMA!
Today sucks but not really. It is the first Monday of my last day of work here at the state health department and I am SO nauseous I could punch a baby great white in the face! Smh. But as miserable as I am, I'm also happy because I am moving on to a bigger, better job soon and today also marks the confirmation of my pregnancy! Ryan and I went to my PCP this morning (who is probably the MOST awesome doctor in the world) and she confirmed what we already knew: WE'RE REALLY PREGNANT! Lol. I wasn't surprised but it just brought home the reality of it. After 8 years with it "just being us", there will finally be a 3rd person in my house this time next year. I will also be winding down my 1-year probationary period at my new job. Looking forward to the baby, but terrified of birth.
It's so funny because I was seriously preparing myself for a future that included like a gazillion fertility drugs and a ton of prayer. But when I learned I was pregnant, it was like I knew my body was made for this. I definitely believe I have my awesome hubby to thank for this pregnancy--him and God, of course. He has been on a serious family health kick after watching "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead" and reading "The 4-Hour Body"... he's rid the house of processed foods (well most of them) and he put us on a whole foods lifestyle. It took some adjusting but I totally went into it thinking only about the weight-loss benefits and nothing of the collateral side effects. I'm just grateful God gave him a vision and he followed through on it and I followed him. And now I'm having a sweet lil' baby soon.
I've never been a person who vomits easily. So I have not thrown up once. But the nausea is so overwhelming sometimes. I'm currently sitting at my desk and it feels as if I am rocking on a boat. And the fatigue is no joke. I could start a running list of the places I have randomly fell asleep (oftentimes drooling on Ryan): slumped over on Ryan's cousin's couch, the movie theater, the car, sitting up on our couch, my office desk... I feel like a borderline narcoleptic. It's really sad lol. But such is life...
It's probably time for me to try to do some actual work. So excited to schedule my OB/GYN appt tomorrow morning and even MORE excited about my first ultrasound. Let's Gooooo!
It's so funny because I was seriously preparing myself for a future that included like a gazillion fertility drugs and a ton of prayer. But when I learned I was pregnant, it was like I knew my body was made for this. I definitely believe I have my awesome hubby to thank for this pregnancy--him and God, of course. He has been on a serious family health kick after watching "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead" and reading "The 4-Hour Body"... he's rid the house of processed foods (well most of them) and he put us on a whole foods lifestyle. It took some adjusting but I totally went into it thinking only about the weight-loss benefits and nothing of the collateral side effects. I'm just grateful God gave him a vision and he followed through on it and I followed him. And now I'm having a sweet lil' baby soon.
I've never been a person who vomits easily. So I have not thrown up once. But the nausea is so overwhelming sometimes. I'm currently sitting at my desk and it feels as if I am rocking on a boat. And the fatigue is no joke. I could start a running list of the places I have randomly fell asleep (oftentimes drooling on Ryan): slumped over on Ryan's cousin's couch, the movie theater, the car, sitting up on our couch, my office desk... I feel like a borderline narcoleptic. It's really sad lol. But such is life...
It's probably time for me to try to do some actual work. So excited to schedule my OB/GYN appt tomorrow morning and even MORE excited about my first ultrasound. Let's Gooooo!
Praise Break!
I ran across this song and it really resonated with how I felt today! :) It literally has been on repeat all morning. Hope you enjoy it as much as I did...
Friday, December 27, 2013
Welcome to the Landing Post
I actually started this blog about a year ago to voice my frustrations with my infertility issues. After starting the first draft of my first post, I quit. It just made it more real and made me feel more depressed.
But today I finally got my Big Fat Positive (BFP) without any fertility drugs, without any real effort. I never believed people when they said 'it just happened' but it really did for me. And ironically it made me believe in God that much more. I always felt in my heart that just like the lady with the blood issue or the blind man on the road to Damascus, all it would take was for God to just reach out and touch me and anything that wasn't right...would become right. I feel like I have been repurposed. I had so SO many plans for Ryan and I in 2014 and now our world has been turned upside down. I'm not in Kansas anymore, that's for sure.
As of Today, I don't even know my due date, I haven't heard a heartbeat, I havent felt a kick, but I have seen 2 little lines that tell me that deep down inside my body, there's a little tiny baby who belongs to me, whose just right for me, who I have literally worked my ASS for, whose ENTIRE life will be molded by the positive energy that I will pour into him. He will be blessed and privileged because of the fruits of our labor and our selflessness. I have been through hell and back in these last 26 years...and now I feel as if it were all for him. I have pushed my husband and I took the brink of greatness and madness at the same time, motivating us to make it to that next ladder rung, and Im SOOO happy I did because my baby's life will be so much more blessed because of our sacrifices.
So how did I feel when I first saw the '+' sign? Honestly, it was like I was immediately invited into this clubhouse that I'd always wanted to be apart of since I was a little girl with my barbies, but could only look from outside through frosted glass. And the second thing I thought of was "NOW I can start my blog." I dedicate this blog to all those who still feel like they're waiting on the outside... With this blog, I'll help you explore the clubhouse through my eyes :) There's no stork bringing this baby to my door step, I like to imagine its been a great big pterodactyl that's been protecting him until I've been ready to meet him. So Welcome to the Pterodactyl Landing post! Here I will sit and pour out all my daily thoughts over these next 36 weeks or until my precious baby is finally in my arms...
But today I finally got my Big Fat Positive (BFP) without any fertility drugs, without any real effort. I never believed people when they said 'it just happened' but it really did for me. And ironically it made me believe in God that much more. I always felt in my heart that just like the lady with the blood issue or the blind man on the road to Damascus, all it would take was for God to just reach out and touch me and anything that wasn't right...would become right. I feel like I have been repurposed. I had so SO many plans for Ryan and I in 2014 and now our world has been turned upside down. I'm not in Kansas anymore, that's for sure.
As of Today, I don't even know my due date, I haven't heard a heartbeat, I havent felt a kick, but I have seen 2 little lines that tell me that deep down inside my body, there's a little tiny baby who belongs to me, whose just right for me, who I have literally worked my ASS for, whose ENTIRE life will be molded by the positive energy that I will pour into him. He will be blessed and privileged because of the fruits of our labor and our selflessness. I have been through hell and back in these last 26 years...and now I feel as if it were all for him. I have pushed my husband and I took the brink of greatness and madness at the same time, motivating us to make it to that next ladder rung, and Im SOOO happy I did because my baby's life will be so much more blessed because of our sacrifices.
So how did I feel when I first saw the '+' sign? Honestly, it was like I was immediately invited into this clubhouse that I'd always wanted to be apart of since I was a little girl with my barbies, but could only look from outside through frosted glass. And the second thing I thought of was "NOW I can start my blog." I dedicate this blog to all those who still feel like they're waiting on the outside... With this blog, I'll help you explore the clubhouse through my eyes :) There's no stork bringing this baby to my door step, I like to imagine its been a great big pterodactyl that's been protecting him until I've been ready to meet him. So Welcome to the Pterodactyl Landing post! Here I will sit and pour out all my daily thoughts over these next 36 weeks or until my precious baby is finally in my arms...
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